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One of those days




Do you  have days where you feel like you’re running in circles? I’ve been trying to get a billion things done and whenever that happens I get nothing done. Except yell at my kids, which I hate to do because it’s not their fault I’m so busy.

I’ve mentioned before that I was having a job change, not one that I chose. Losing a job made me stop and think about what I really wanted to be doing with my life. Which was good, because I at least have an idea of where I want to be in a few years. But this is not the year.

I have a new job, or rather a new project with a previous employer. Not my dream job, but after not having a job for a month, I’m so grateful just to have it. I’m in that “new job” phase though, when you’re trying to quickly learn everything and bumbling through. I’ve also started training for another project, so I’m bumbling through several things right now. Not a good feeling, but in the type of work I do, it’s a necessity to have more than 1 project.

I had my 2 bosses IM’ing me today, everyone needed me at once, and there just wasn’t enough of me to go around. Then my poor kids came home.  The ones I really wanted to be with, those are the ones I yelled at.

Why does work have to get in the way of life? I know there are some people who are blessed with work that they love, work that gives them great joy. I am eternally grateful to have a job, especially now, the way the economy is going. But my joy is being with my boys, the boys who are growing up so quickly before my eyes. Instead I’m squeezing them in, and trying to not take my frustrations out on them.  

Maybe I’m having a midlife crisis. Or maybe I’ve just started to figure out what’s really important and I want to spend my time on those things. Either way, I hope tomorrow is better.

 

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    3 Responses to “One of those days”

      1
        Marjo on October 8th, 2008 12:20 am

        There are always days like that. I’m a stay at home Mom and can still find time to yell at them (my boys) and feel terribly guilty afterward, you’re not alone. And you sound like a terrific Mom.

      2
        Sheri on October 8th, 2008 7:21 pm

        Thank you Marjo. I hate yelling at them, especially when I know that whatever is stressing me out is not because of them. I just do the best I can and hope each day is better.

      3
        Robyns Online World on October 9th, 2008 8:19 pm

        We all have those moments of taking our stress & frustration out on the ones we love. I try my best not to do it, but it still happens. The thing to try to remember is to apologize to them after it happens as soon as you can. This goes a lot further than people would expect most of the time. I give my son a hug and a kiss and tell him I am not upset with him and I am so sorry that I took it out on him. He told me once that is one of the things he likes most about me – that I apologize to him.

        Hang in there. I’m sure you will get past the stress of the new projects soon also. You’re a smart cookie and learn fast I bet!