May
31
Monday already?? I hope you’re enjoying the long weekend and having a wonderful Memorial Day. My family is home today, but they’re all worn out from their trip to Kansas. So it’s a lazy day for them.
This will be our first full week of no school – yikes! The first week is hard, because they really think I am just so thrilled to have them home (which I am) that I have nothing to do but entertain them (which is not true). They don’t understand why I have to work and do homework when they’re home. I wish life worked that way! It will take a couple of days for them to figure out that they are their own entertainment commitee; they’ll have to make their own fun. They can do it, it just takes some time to sink in. Ah kids.
I have written so much these past few days; it’s like a dam burst inside and my writer’s block is all gone. Wonderful but kind of exhausting for it all to come out at once like that, lol. Check out my fun giveaway to kick off summer and try to raise enough money to send my son to the Rose Bowl Parade with his high school marching band. I’ve got a few more giveaways coming up over the next two weeks, so check back for those.
I’ve made the mind blowing decision that regardless of whatever is going on in my life, this week – and all of June – is going to be awesome. I need it to be awesome, so I will make it awesome. It’s about time for some wonderfulness, don’t you think?
Link up your Monday -or Tuesday, since this is a holiday- posts here and share them with me. We can motivate each other as we start June off with a bang
Here are the guidelines for my Monday Motivation blog carnival:
1. You can link up your Monday post no matter what its about, even if you have linked it somewhere else. Anything goes! This is all about sharing our posts.
2. Copy the permalink to your post in the Monday Motivation linky. Make sure it’s the link to your post, not your homepage.
3. Enter your name and post title in the linky.
4. Please include a link back to this Monday Motivation post in your post. Leave a comment after you link up.
5. Share the love! Visit the other links in the list. I’ll be visiting and spreading some Twitter luv for all the links
6. Grab my button if you want to.
I will keep the linky open until Wednesday at midnight, so link up anytime. I look forward to reading your posts, thanks for joining in!
May
30
I wrote about the purpose of these giveaways in my last post, and I really can’t think of a better way to kick off June and the start of summer than by having a giveaway. If you haven’t had time to slog your way through that never ending post, basically I’ve got some very cool prizes to give away. I’ve also got a son who has the awesome opportunity to march in the Rose Bowl Parade with the high school band, but the cost is out of our reach. So I’m borrowing an idea from another blogger who wanted to raise money to attend a blogging conference. This giveaway will be pretty much the same as any other giveaway I’ve held, except that you will have the option to earn extra entries if you want to contribute to my son’s band trip fund. No donation or financial contribution is required to enter or to win; there are many other ways to enter.
I’ve got several prizes, so we’re going to drag out the fun a little. I’ll announce each prize or set of prizes separately, so there will be some overlap. Here’s how the giveaways will work:
The first prize that I’ll be giving away is a brand new Canon PowerShot A3100 IS. Perfect for summer vacation, sporting events, or just having fun at home. You know you want one
Here’s how to enter to win this little baby:
The only required entry is to leave a comment here telling me if you have any exciting plans for this summer. Exciting is a pretty loose term; a picnic in the park is exciting, so is a family vacation. Just share your summer plans with me, because mine all revolve around a classroom and lots of homework, which is definitely not exciting. One comment per person, but there are other ways to enter.
More ways to enter:
- Subscribe to Unexpected Bliss.
- Follow me on Google Friend Connect (right sidebar)
- Mention this giveaway on your blog (include direct link in your comment)
- Follow me on Twitter (@UnexpectedBliss), leave a comment with your Twitter id.
- For an extra entry, tweet on Twitter about this giveaway. This may be done twice per day; more than twice per day will not be counted. Leave a comment for each tweet with the link to your comment and your Twitter id.
For each of the above that you do, leave one comment on this giveaway post, ie one comment if you subscribe, one comment if you follow me on GFC, one comment if you follow me on Twitter, one comment for each tweet, one comment for mentioning this on your blog.
Your comments may not show up immediately. Please do not post the same comment/entry more than once; all the comments will show up shortly.
Okay, that gives you a lot of opportunities to enter. After all that, if you’d like to help me send my son to the Rose Bowl Parade with his school band, you are more than welcome to do so, and I will be forever grateful. For every $5 donation, you get five extra entries for the giveaway. So $10 = 10 entries, and so on. Of course, you do not have to donate to enter or to win. All donations will be used to help pay for his band trip. If I raise more money than the cost of the trip, I will give the excess to the band patrons association to be used to help other students who cannot afford to go. If this is something you feel called to do, I thank you from the bottom of my heart, and so does my boy.
If you donate, you can leave a comment on this giveaway post just stating that you donated, but you don’t have to. I get a confirmation email for every donation, and I can also verify donations in my Paypal account. I will have a record of your donation and the amount, so I can keep track of the entries. Please use this donate button for this giveaway; do not use the button that will be in the upcoming giveaway post later this week. To keep track of entries correctly, each donate button is coded differently.
This giveaway is open to US addresses only. Please make sure you leave a valid email address with each entry. Each entry will be assigned a number and the winner will be chosen via random.org. The winner will have 72 hours to respond to my email notification. If I do not hear back within that time I will pick another winner.
This giveaway will end Wednesday, June 9 at midnight CST. This giveaway has ended. I will verify the entries and notify the winner via email; as soon as I hear back from the winner, I will announce it here. Thanks for entering!
I will post another “Kick-off Summer” giveaway on Wednesday, June 2. To simplify record keeping, each giveaway will be separate and will have separate entry methods, even though the dates will overlap some. Good luck!
Questions? Email me at unexpectedblissmail at gmail dot com
This is not a sponsored giveaway. I purchased this camera myself; Canon does not know I exist. Their loss, I know
May
30
I really didn’t mean for this to be such a long post. I start to write these days and I just can’t stop the words. I hope you can stick with me til the end.
Have I mentioned that my oldest son is a musician? I’m sure I have
He plays the piano and the bass clarinet in the school band. Our local school takes band very seriously here; the high school band always wins area competitions and has huge support in the community. As the mom of a non-athlete, I really appreciate a school that values other extracurricular activities.
My son will be is in high school now (that still hasn’t sunk in). The high school band gets to march in the Rose Bowl Parade in Pasadena California next December! What a huge honor, and how exciting for those kids. My son can’t hardly wait to get started marching. Conditioning starts in June; the parade route is over five miles, so they have to get in shape for it. In August, the band will practice daily from 8am to 4pm. This is a lot of work, and they emphasize that the kids have to be serious and committed to stick with it. My son is. Music is his life, and he hopes to get a music scholarship.
About this trip to the Rose Bowl. It’s expensive. When I found out about the trip earlier this year I called the mom in charge of fundraising for the band. She gave me all the details including dates, prices and a partial list of upcoming fundraising events. The preliminary price she gave me seemed within reach as long as we did the fundraisers and saved any money he earns mowing yards. My son has participated in every possible fundraiser, but it’s hard to sell candy bars and plants when every other school group is selling the same thing. He has two yards this summer; it’s hard to get mowing jobs in this economy. There are literally dozens of ads for lawn services at any given time, and most of our past customers aren’t able to afford it now.
The band chairperson called me last week with the final details and price for the trip, and the price is actually almost double the amount I was originally given. It’s going to be about $1000 for the travel (bus), hotel, meals and activities. It’s actually a great price for a trip of that magnitude. But it’s still out of reach, and the $86 he has accumulated from the fundraisers makes just a tiny dent.
So I’m borrowing a great idea from another blogger who wanted to raise money to attend a blogging conference (thanks Ashley!). I mentioned in a previous post that I had been blessed by a local business with some things to give away here, for whatever purpose I wanted. I’ve already had a couple giveaways, but I’ve been waiting to give away the items I still have. After wracking my brain for the past few days about how to break it to my son that there’s just no way for us to send him on that band trip, I remembered Ashley’s brilliant idea.
I have two grand prizes and several smaller prizes to give away. There will be several ways to enter as there always are for any of my giveaways. In addition, if you are so inclined to help send my son to the Rose Bowl Parade with his band, you can earn extra entries. No purchase or financial contribution is required for this giveaway.
The giveaway is made possible by some generations donations and assistance from some angels who live in my community. They’ve helped as much as they can, and it is a huge help. I’ve talked this over with them and have gotten their blessing to use these items for this purpose. It’s not a sponsored giveaway; the prizes are items that I have purchased.
If you read my blog at all, you know that right now I’m struggling with a lot of things. You probably wonder why I’m even trying to do this for my son, for a band trip. I know that in the big scheme of things, this is not a priority. If you are a parent, you might understand. My son is in the ninth grade. It’s never too soon to start thinking about college, and for us, thinking about college means thinking about scholarship opportunities. We’ve talked to his piano teacher about things he can do and competitions he can enter that will improve his chances at getting a music scholarship. This is not a whim of his that he will get bored with next week. He’s been taking music lessons for over five years. He’s good at it. I’m not just being a proud mom; music professionals have told me this. So to me, this is not just a fun trip. It’s an investment in his future. Yes, it is also the trip of a lifetime. A trip that we would never be able to send him on if not for the band. The band doesn’t get to do this every year; they may not get to do it again while he’s in school. I can’t be certain that there will ever be a second chance for him to go.
If you think it’s wrong of me to want this for my son, I understand. I do want it for him though, and I’m willing to do this to try to make it happen. You all get a fun giveaway with some great prizes to kick off the summer, and if you want, you have the option to help a boy follow his dream. Participation in anything is always optional.
For so many of the struggles and trials that I’m going through right now, there is nothing I can do right at this moment to change or affect the outcome. Being stuck in a holding pattern with no possible forward movement is frustrating, to say the least. In this situation, which also seemed impossible a few days ago, there is something I can do to try to change the outcome. This giveaway was going to happen regardless; I’m just mixing it up a bit.
The giveaway will be posted later today; I hope you’ll check back for the exciting details.
May
29
My family is off visiting relatives this weekend, and I’m kind of surprised by how much I’m missing them right now, by the depth of the feeling. They’ve barely been gone 24 hours, for crying out loud, and I feel so sad.
I know this feeling is just a reflection of the week I had. They needed to get away and have fun. I’m glad they went, but I needed to hold them close after the storm.
I’m getting a lot of work done, which is why I stayed behind. Can I have one more gripe and just say how tired I am of staying behind to work? There, that’s my last complaint. Promise.
I have to listen to music while I work, otherwise my thoughts run rampant and I get distracted. A song came up on Pandora that I’d never heard before, and the lyrics hit me like a brick. Here is just part of the song:
I want to open my eyes
I know that all I need is time
I’m growing stronger every single dayGot to go I’ll leave it to you now
Letting go of all my fear and doubt
I can’t do this on my own so I give you controlThe pressure makes us stronger
The struggle makes us hunger
The hard lessons makes the differenceAnd the differences make it worth it
The song is For Those Who Wait by Fireflight. I went to their website to find the lyrics, and I found this blurb from the lead singer, Dawn, about the story behind the song:
“There are so many hard things going on in so many people’s lives that life sometimes can be seen as a giant waiting game. We’re just waiting for those hard things to teach us something. Those hard things that happened to you can become the best things that ever happened to you because God can use that pain. He’ll turn it into power for your life, to help yourself and to help others. And those will be the cornerstones of your entire life and the basis and the formation of your character.”
I can’t imagine words that fit my life better than that right now. I have a hard time remembering that the hard lessons make the difference, or that God is working in me right now. When you’re in the depths of the struggle you can’t see very far in front of you. Trusting is the key, and I’m continually working on trusting.
Another thing I have a hard time with is praying for myself. I waver between giving up completely and feeling like I’ve prayed it all before. So when you all say you’re praying for me, you have no idea the gift you’re giving me.
I do have a prayer for all of us this weekend. While I’m missing my family so much that I physically ache, I pray that you will be wrapped in the love of your friends and family. If not literally, then in your heart. Love what you have, love the life you’re living, treasure the gifts you’ve been given.
The only sure thing is right now. Cherish it.
For more Tuesdays Unwrapped visit Chatting at the Sky
May
29
Another great week for blog reading! Check out these posts.
Coming Clean ~ Respect-Ability This post echoes how I feel about the abundance of awards that our kids get these days, earned or not.
The Gypsy Mama ~ When You Start the Week Weighed Down by Worry Is your worry weighing you down? Beautiful words.
Confessions of a Snowflake ~ Defined by Love Wonderful post for anyone struggling with the dreaded “I’m not good enough”.
Finding Serendipity ~ Of Little Boys and Baseball Bats Beautiful words and images. As the mom of a baseball player, this just made me cry.
And since I’ve had such a downer of a week, I’m including some links to older posts of my own. Now I’m not saying these are “must reads”, but they do reflect a lighter, brighter time in my life which you may not have been here for. Hey – stick around, I’m sure a brighter season is coming around again very soon for me
Don’t these things happen to everyone?
Could he be a little less helpful?
Still looking for that peace and quiet…
Have a wonderful, relaxing Memorial Day weekend. I’ll be posting the Monday Motivation linky on Sunday evening as usual, so if you’re posting Monday (or Tuesday) stop by and link up.
This post is linked at Saturday Stumbles at It’s Come 2 This
May
28
Oh to be so young and carefree! We had no idea what we were getting into 16 years ago today. No idea of the trials, struggles, joy and blessings we had in store for us. Still no idea of what is to come.
Here are some things I have learned in the past 16 years: (I was going to call these “words of wisdom” but I figure everyone else already knew this. I’m a slow learner)
- No matter how long you have known and/or dated someone, there is still a lot you don’t know.
- Everything you think you have figured out will all be blown to bits when you have children.
- This doesn’t apply to everyone, but I didn’t truly realize what a wonderful man I had married until I saw what a wonderful father he is to our children.
- Despite your best intentions, you will never fit into that wedding dress again. That size is long gone honey. (fine, maybe this just applies to me!)
- All those jokes about men forgetting anniversaries? I have to admit that at this point, the only way I remember how long we’ve been married is to add a year to our son’s age. The years of bliss have all blurred together
- Getting married is an act of love. Staying married is an act of faith and will. Don’t take that the wrong way; I just have learned that love and happiness ebb and flow; faith and the will to honor your commitment is what gets you through.
My husband and I have never been big on anniversary gifts, both out of necessity and just how we are. This year is no different. It’s a bit melancholy though. I have the opportunity to work this holiday weekend, so I am working and he has taken our boys to visit family. We may get to grab a bite together on Monday, which will be nice.
Happy anniversary honey; thanks for putting up with me.
May
26
I don’t know if I’ll publish this post. I’m not in the best frame of mind to even be writing. But isn’t that the point of writing?
Life is beating me down. Every time I think I’ve got to be as low as I can go, the beating continues. The story of my life right now is a nightmare of epic proportions, so horrible it borders on funny, in a sick kind of way of course.
You all know about my parenting drama this week, so I won’t go into that. Just be aware that the parenting stuff alone was enough to put me on the brink of losing my mind. So the rest of this stuff on top of it? Right over the edge.
My car has been in the shop for some repairs that were supposed to be covered by warranty. Once the mechanic got under the hood, more repairs were deemed necessary, which aren’t covered by warranty but of course must.be.done.
In the middle of school assemblies, concerts, performances and parties, my garage door broke. I couldn’t get my car out (the lovely loaner car from the mechanic). Since we live pretty close to both my kids’ schools, I was able to walk to their events. But that’s about all I’ve gotten done. Apparently it is the season for garage door problems, because I called every place in a 50 mile radius and they are all booked up for two days or more. Who knew the garage door business was so lucrative??
My son’s phone broke. I know this isn’t a big deal when you look at the big picture, but with my summer classes starting, I need him to have a phone. Just one.more.thing.
On a totally different level, my dad is having more health problems. He has a ton of them already, but this new one is of the “could be benign, or not” variety. They meet with the surgeon next week and we’ll plan from there. I know I don’t need to ask, but prayers, please.
I would give anything to be able to spend some time with them and be there during the surgery, but I don’t get any paid time off from work, so right now it looks impossible. That just adds frustration to an already stressful situation.
There’s more that has gone wrong in the past week, minor things that all piled together make a mountain that I’m struggling to climb.
As a final insult, my husband decided that since today was the last day of school, it would be a great time to let our youngest son invite several friends to sleep over. Sigh. I know he’s right to do that, because regardless of the muck I am trying to wade through, the kids don’t need to be affected by it. I just need to put my happy face on for them, and I’m having a hard time doing that right now.
Join with me in repeating this mantra: It HAS to get better. Oh please, doesn’t it?
May
26
More and more, the things I write on this blog are focused on parenting. Not on how to parent, but on how not to parent. Clearly I am not one to give advice, but maybe if I share my shortcomings and failures, it might help someone else.
In my last post I admitted that my son has basically slacked off to the point that I’m very worried about his grades. This is such a tough situation, but it’s also very hard to admit that my child is a slacker. Especially on the internet. You all don’t know him, you can’t see the potential that he’s trying to hide, you don’t know that he’s a good guy. When I talk about my kids to other family members or “in real life” friends, they at least know that despite all the struggles, he’s a good boy. I never want it to seem like I am overly critical of my kids, or that they are deliquents, but I realize that by sharing things online, you may only get a narrow view. That’s not my intent.
Yesterday was hard. He is upset about his grades; final grades haven’t been posted but from the sheer difficulty of his finals, he knows that whatever “magic” he was hoping to pull out of a hat is not going to happen. He was angry and frustrated last night, and he lashed out at me. I expected this, because he really thought he could ace those finals without studying. Reality hurts.
He was so ugly, so unpleasant, that by the time I dropped him off for his spring band concert, I had decided that I wasn’t going to go to the concert. My husband was at our other son’s baseball game and couldn’t leave, so I was going to the concert by myself. But I was done. I was angry, hurt, and just disgusted with my child, and I didn’t want to go. I didn’t want to see him or watch him perform.
I came home and started fixing my dinner. While my leftovers were warming, I decided to look through some of the papers that he had brought home from cleaning out his locker. I found something that he had just written that afternoon.
I can’t share what he wrote, but it showed me a side of him that he refuses to show. His written words reflected fear, doubt, insecurity, and anger at himself. The words he had spoken to me earlier were hiding all that, directing all those feelings at me instead of telling me how he was really feeling.
When I read what he wrote, I felt like the worst mother, the worst person in the world. I know that what you see with a teenager, what they show you, isn’t always the whole story, the true story. He probably didn’t want me to see what he had written. He probably didn’t want to be that honest with anyone. He doesn’t know I saw it, and I won’t tell him.
I had ten minutes before his concert started. I ran a comb through my hair, changed my shirt and ran. I got there one minute before it started. The band was already on stage. The boy sitting next to my son saw me, waved and poked my son. He smiled when he saw me.
I’m deeply ashamed that I was so angry that I was going to miss his final 8th grade concert. I didn’t think he’d notice that I wasn’t there, but I also didn’t care. If I look deep enough, I probably wanted to lash out at him the way he had lashed out at me. I am so very ashamed.
This doesn’t change things as far as the grade situation. There will be consequences for his slacking off. As far as he is concerned, nothing has changed. But something has changed inside of me.
What if God turned his back on me when I disappointed him? Which I have done and will continue to do. What if He left me wandering in the desert because I offended him? What if He was vengeful, and wanted to hurt me when I hurt him? What kind of Father would he be if he treated his children like I wanted to treat my son last night?
My son has questioned my faith before. He has asked me, how can I trust in a God that I can’t see, or in a God that allows bad things to happen. I have tried to explain it to him, but he will have to learn to trust and have faith on his own. I do have faith that my God loves me, in spite of my sins, in spite of my failures.
I want my children to have faith that as their mother, I will always love them. I will always be there for them. No matter what.
I was very close to blowing that last night. I wanted to fight pettiness with pettiness. I’m so glad that I was nudged to read my son’s papers. I normally don’t go through his things, I wait til he is home and ask him to show me. Clearly someone wanted me to know what my son was really feeling. Someone wanted me to get back on track and do the right thing.
May
24
When I signed up for this parenting gig, a whole bunch of things were left out of the job description! Diapers, bottles, potty training, tantrums; I was prepared for all that.
No one told me that there would come a time when I would choose to let my child fall instead of carry him safely to his destination. When that would be the best choice I could make for him. And the hardest choice I ever made.
I have always been adamant that I would not be one of those parents who nags about homework, or does their children’s projects for them, or calls teachers to ask for second chances. Their school work is their job, not mine. After a certain age, I don’t think it’s even my job to remind them to do their homework.
Since I’m sharing a whole lot about myself these days, I need to honestly admit that while I have always believed those things, these days I have so much going on that even if I wanted to, I just don’t have the time to remember all the things my kids are responsible for. My life has been in a state of chaos for several months now, and I’m lucky to meet my own obligations. It’s a good thing I’ve never been the type of parent to monitor their homework assignments, because I’d be blowing it now.
So my boys have grown up doing their own work, which has meant turning in less than stellar art and science projects. At least compared to the art and science projects that had an abundance of adult “help”. They have grown up used to the fact that some days I might ask them if they’ve finished their homework, but most days I won’t ask. I still expect it to be done. They’ve never had a problem with this.
Ah, but you knew this was coming. They’ve never had a problem until now. You see, my teenage son is just way too smart, way too advanced, to be bothered with homework. Eighth grade work is just so far beneath him, especially since he is so much smarter than his teachers. Can you hear the sarcasm dripping down my computer screen? I just love this attitude.
I have many friends with 14 and 15 year old sons, and this attitude of superiority, this “I know better than anyone else” attitude seems to be pretty common. That doesn’t make it any easier for me.
My son’s problem is that he is smart. Certain things come so easily for him, so he’s spent the majority of his educational career not needing to study. But classes are harder now. And as he gets closer to high school, he needs to buckle down.
More honesty now. I have emailed teachers more in the past month than I have for the entire time my son has been in school. I want his teachers to know that I know, and that I am concerned. I have been checking the parent website for his grades daily, actually hourly.
In reality, his grades aren’t bad. He keeps reminding me of that. But several of his grades are borderline, so if he has decided that he doesn’t need to worry about final exams, those grades may very well plummet. I lie in bed at night and confess to my husband how worried I am that he will blow everything in the last few days of school.
And I have become the nagging mom. I have talked until I’m blue in the face about how important it is not to fall behind, because there is no time to make things up now. I have talked about the future and about how a few of his classes are for high school credit. I have talked about it so much that I am sick of hearing it myself. And it hasn’t done a bit of good.
There are a few things I haven’t done. I haven’t helped him with his final projects. Those projects were well within his capabilities. I haven’t asked his teachers to extend deadlines for work not turned in on time. And the hardest of all; I haven’t told him how very disappointed I am. Not in his grades, but because he is squandering his God given gifts.
I won’t lie and say that grades aren’t important to me. They are. But more than grades, what I value the most is effort. If either of my children gives it their best effort and still ends up with a bad grade, I am okay with that. I am not okay with giving absolutely no effort, then acting shocked when you get a bad grade.
I suppose there is more that I could have done to avoid this situation. I could have been more strict about checking their homework every night. But I still say that it’s not my job. I could carry my son to the finish line and make sure that his grades reflect his abilities. But it’s not my job, and what does he learn if I do that?
My mother in law is such a wise woman, and she told me that sometimes you just have to let them fail, let them get what they deserve, and let them deal with the repercussions. This little tidbit was not in my parenting manual, and it is so hard to do.
Part of me wants to march into my son’s room right this minute and yell, nag, threaten, bribe, or beg. Whatever it takes. Whatever it takes to get the outcome that I want. Part of me wants to force him to do this my way, whether he wants to or not. Because I said so.
But this time I have to let him fall. I can’t carry him, and I can’t pick him up when he falls. I have to stand back and let this play out.
That doesn’t mean that we won’t be doling out consequences. The consequences will be swift and probably harsh, at least in his eyes. But I cannot stand over him waving the potential consequences in an attempt to force him to act like I want him to act. To try as hard as I want him to try. He has to do this himself and for the right reasons.
This goes against everything I thought it meant to be a parent. My arms are strong, and my heart is willing. I can carry both of my boys. I can be their strength, their moral compass, their light in the darkness. I can, but I can’t. They have to find it in themselves.
May
24
I am running in circles again today with school assemblies and getting ready for school to be over on Wednesday. Why does the last day of school always sneak up on me?? I wanted to get this linky posted so you can link up your Monday post, whatever it’s about, and I’ll be back online later to read and tweet your posts.
Here are the guidelines for my Monday Motivation blog carnival:
1. You can link up your Monday post no matter what its about. Anything goes!
2. Copy the permalink to your post in the Monday Motivation linky. Make sure it’s the link to your post, not your homepage.
3. Enter your name and post title in the linky.
4. Please include a link back to this Monday Motivation post in your post. Leave a comment after you link up.
5. Share the love! Visit the other links in the list. I’ll be visiting and spreading some Twitter luv for all the links.
6. Grab my button if you want to.

I will keep the linky open until Wednesday at midnight, so link up anytime. I look forward to reading your Monday posts, thanks for joining in!



















