Jun

21

The world keeps turning




It seems like months since I was here, online.  I haven’t looked at my blog, haven’t checked my reader or email in several days. Part of me just didn’t want to come back. I’m so tired, my heart is just worn out.

I meant to just peek in here real quick; I just got home and am unpacking and trying to straighten out my life that I’ve had to neglect  here.  I had almost convinced myself that I shouldn’t even get online. I’m so glad I did.

I don’t have time to respond to the very kind comments right now, but I wanted to let you all know that your sweet, encouraging words brought tears to my eyes – even though I was sure I was all cried out. Thank you so much for taking the time to comment and write and pray. It means so much, especially right now.

My head is still spinning from everything that’s happened in the past week.  My dad is still in bad shape, but he did get to attend my uncle’s funeral.  There was no way to keep him from that. I didn’t want to go to this funeral, but I got to see some family members that I hadn’t seen in decades, and I am grateful for that.  Many people commented how sad it is that it takes a funeral to bring us together, and I agree.  But life goes on.

It did my dad good to see his brothers and other relatives, but we all could see that his heart is broken over the death of his closest brother.  This was completely unexpected; a routine procedure went terribly wrong.  The doctors tried everything they could, but after awhile, my aunt said to stop. She wanted him to be at peace, even if that meant losing her husband and best friend.

It makes you wonder how it is possible for so many sad things to happen so quickly. I’m refusing to go down that road though.  Doubt and anger and bitterness never lead anywhere good.  Instead, I’m focusing on praying for my aunt, for my dad and mom, and for all my family.  I’m telling my husband and kids stories about my dad and his brothers, remembering the good. 

I need to get my house in order, and after more than a week of emotional turmoil, I am actually looking forward to mundane tasks like laundry and picking up after my sons. Since I’ve been on this necessary blogging break, my baby has turned 13, and in a few days, my oldest will turn 15. We’ve got some make-up celebrating to do here, and I need that even more than they do. I need to wrap myself in my life, in the people that I live with and love, and try to overcome the sadness that has surrounded me for the past several days. Because life does go on, and it is still good, so very good.

Slowly but surely I will get my email box cleaned out, and I will respond to your sweet comments.  Slowly is the key word though.  Life does go on and the world does keep turning, but I think it’s okay to slow it down a little.  Too often I find myself fast forwarding through life, frantically trying to get things done and check them off my to-do list.  I realized these past few days that life is not a to-do list that needs to be completed.  It’s okay to just meander through sometimes, and accomplish nothing more than being. Just being is enough.

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    10 Responses to “The world keeps turning”

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        Ellie on June 21st, 2010 11:10 pm

        The worst thing about these times is life goes on.

        The very best thing about these times is life goes on.

        The Saturday after 9/11, I remember walking out of the florist with a homecoming corsage for my son’s date.

        After my mom died, I found myself wrapping the last presents she picked out for her grandkids for Christmas.

        I remember sitting at Culver’s, of all places, for lunch just hours after my father died, and something made those gathered laughed.

        He would have liked that.

        Routines matter, parties matter, get back into them.
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        Tiffany on June 21st, 2010 11:19 pm

        Hugs! Take your time and let yourself feel. The routine is great, but it is no substitute for healing. I have found that it is really easy to fall back into the routine and supress what I feel. But we need to be reminded that life does go on. It will be ok Sheri. And we will be here for whatever you need.
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        Cari on June 21st, 2010 11:26 pm

        Take your time hun! We will all be waiting patiently :)

        Go have some fun and smile…LOTS!
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        Melinda on June 22nd, 2010 9:04 am

        Sheri,
        I’ve been largely absent from the blogging world as well this past few weeks. Feeling pain of a different kind and needed to pull away from this world for a while. I came back to visit you and read all you have been going through. I am so, so sorry, friend. Life is so difficult sometimes. Lean on your Best Friend and let him heal your heart. I am praying for you. ;0) Take the time you need to tend to your family and your own emotional health. Thinking of you.

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        louise on June 22nd, 2010 3:22 pm

        I can’t imagine the pain you and your family is going through. As I have just started reading your blog, I want you to know that even though I do not know you very well you are in my thoughts and so is your father.
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        Bev on June 22nd, 2010 4:04 pm

        sounds like you are getting some clarity on some things in your life…circumstances such as what you have been going through do(or don’t)that to us…live in the moment. take a deep breath. slow down….it’s ok.
        hugs…
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        Jennifer Davis on June 24th, 2010 8:16 am

        Praying for you! And don’t worry about replying to people’s comments. Spend time hugging your kids and letting God’s peace get you through this tough time.
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        Barbie on June 25th, 2010 10:42 am

        Praying for you during this time. Asking God to give you peace and rest and to help you do all that needs to be done. He is able. He will help you.
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